A REBEL'S YELL !

Never Say Forever.

2009-11-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

HI! HI! (:

I've been busy with life.
BJ's operation went well.
Spend the weekend with Xiera :D
I miss spending time with her, stupid exams of hers.

So I'm back being solo (:
I think I do need time for myself and not you.
Yes, I've been lifeless but atleast its better than hanging on you which is so worthless.
No offence.
And, hey, I don't need your love to feel loved.
I know you're better off with younger people.
Cheers to that (:

Had a great time with my girlfies today (:
Gahh, I love them.
I miss CLKY and NSMK. ):
LETS GO OUT BABES!

Ohh, and daddy's birthday is less than 2 hours!
HEEEE!
I've got something for youuu. WEEE!

TIill then ♥

Blahhh.

2009-11-11T22:13:00.000-08:00

I HAVE FEELINGS TOO.
THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU, BYY.

Hot Mess (:

2009-11-10T01:19:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

Stayed at home today.

Fucking period cramps.

Besides, I think I lost my mojo to go school.

Granny's going for an operation this thursday. =/

She seems nervous and she's been very moody lately.

Been spending a lot of time with her.

Here's a convo where she found out about my tongue piercing. HAHA.

granny, me.

*was complaining bout me watching a kissing scene*

bj, chill la, like you never kissed before.

what did you say? you wait I'm gonna tell your mum.

*sticks out tongue without realising*

whats on your tongue? how come got stud?

*wtf moment* what nonsense? got nothing laaa.

*laughs* I don't mind actually, when you did it?

Conclusion was she didn't mind, infact she said it makes my tongue looks shorter. -.-

I'm so thankful to have a cool granny. HAHA.

I really hope the operation goes well. (:

Them, razors.

2009-11-04T05:47:00.000-08:00

BLAHH.

I seriously don't know what is up with everybody, or is it just me?

So I've said to have attitude problem and not being committed.

Strike 1 : Accepted it, was being positive. Okay.

Next, being neglected when I'm still in.

Strike 2 : Wondered, accepted it, disappointed. Still okay.

Later on, being assumed for using a friend. So I did, but not the whole time.

Strike 3 : Decided to confront, said to have reasons for everything. Hurt, unexpectedly.

After that, told dad about everything, was planning to, but i was about to burst.

Strike 4 : Cracked. I've never cried to my dad about friends because that is so standard 3.

Honestly, I don't know if I've changed throughout the whole year.Okay maybe I did, from smoking to piercings, but minus all of that I'm still me.

I never knew that you, a friend that I thought I was okay with would have said those stuffs about me. I don't get why you can't confront me? I thought we knew each other for years, you can't do that either? So I'm different from you, can't you just deal with it?

Btw, I thought that this thing about me was regarding my attendance? How the fuck did it get to me using friends? Wasn't it suppose to be about me?

I'm seriously, sick and tired of this.

p.s : I've got feelings too okay? Yes I seem bold and cheerful, but I am sensitive.

p.s.s : This whole drama, is like I've committed a fucken crime.

All American Rejects Babyy :D

2009-11-04T05:11:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO TYSONN! :P

Fine.
So I know I'm late.
As you all know, ALL AMERICAN REJECTS was the BOMB!! Like totallyyy!! :D
I had fun, did you?
No elaborating for this, whoever missed out, bohoo to you!

Penelope (:

2009-10-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

Hello (:

Decided to stay home alone today.

The TV is currently my new bestfriend :D

I so love watching the movie Penelope. (:
Its so sweet and its sort of like a fairytale.
Did I mentioned that I love James McAvoy's accent?
He's so sexyy.
Christina Ricci is so adorable, in a way, I like her piggy nose. :P

My favourite scene, its so sweeeet.
Was practically aww-ing the whole time.

Random thought, I think I have a thing for older guys.

Literally, like them being 15 years older than me.

HAH.

p.s : I still haven't figured out what to wear for AAR'S CONCERT tomorrow. SUPRISINGLY.

Live Like We're Dying (:

2009-10-28T07:06:00.000-07:00

ICC '09

Hey!

Today was quite a day, oh well just like what Cranberry baby said, "you've only committed a crime if you get caught" :D

Btw, EEEMAN IS AN ASS, still adore you :P

Spent quality time with Cranberry.

She has lots to talk about, I swear to god, you are one awesome sister (:

So she decides to ditch me for AAR this weekend for some fashion week :(

Its okay, I still have my Raspberrybabygirlf*ckerrabiahlovelovebestiefor6yearsalready. :D

p.s :

If you want to use my raspberrybabygirlf*ckerrabiahlovelovebestiefor6yearsalready, I swear to god I'll break you face. You've hurt my bitch, and its not cool.

p.s.s : Birthdays are suppose to fun, make her happy please (:

When Our Struggle Love Comes To An End

2009-10-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Hey.

I've been off for a while, finally done with finals.
This is gonna be a long emo post, bear with me.

Its over.
I'm never good with relationships.
I need time to sort out my life.

You've been great, but I'm never good enough for you.
Don't deny it.
I always hurt you like fuck.

I know your heart is not a rock, and you've been putting up with me.
But why is it always bout you?
Have you thought how I'd feel when you say all of those stuff?
I know I might seem like I'm okay, but can't you tell that I'm actually scared?

There's no point talking about it anyways, it has come to an end.
It was on the rocks anyways.
I don't want to lose you completely.
I want us to be friends like how we used to.
Its really up to you.

For now, I need a break.
I need to sort out my life, big time.

Thanks for the memories, love.

p.s : Friends, I know I've never told you anything, but its no point.
I don't want to talk about it.

p.s.s : You'll do fine without me, I know.

The Butterflies In My Stomach Won't Stop (:

2009-10-08T03:34:00.000-07:00

YO POYO!(:

Hey, you're the only thing that has been on my mind. I wanna know you. (:

Hey ekonomi asas, you're the only thing that has been stressing my life. I wanna screw you, hard. :D

Have you ever wanted something more
than what you have?
I'm facing it now.Help me.QUICK.gahh.

p. s : rest in peace, dayang. Eventhough I don't know you, I feel bad for judging you once.

p.s.s : I know we're better than this.

Our Bridge Has Burned Down (:

2009-10-04T04:47:00.000-07:00

2008 (:

Hello Yellow (:

My week has been okay, dad's been getting on my nerves. I still love you, father.

I feel pretty dumb for what I did, but hey, I'll tend to learn from my mistakes

Thanks mutiara-ly, for listening. (:

Open house sure is fun. Had a Blast at both Tasya's and Amani's. :D

I love Ahmad Farid's daughter. She's the bomb!

Its been a week since I last smoked. Wohoo.

Its been 2weeks since I've saw you, I probably forgot how you look. <3

Finals starts tomorrow!

Gonna be studying like how nerds enjoy studying.

I'm off, and ily.

Cause you always try to feel me with doubts,

Saying that I'll look better if I was thinner,

Don't you know that you should love me for my inner,

When I left you, I came out a winner (:

2009-09-28T07:17:00.000-07:00

Le Moustache!

HEY!HELLO!

I've missed blogging, yeah right.

Dear you,

You're such a fool, but I still fancy you.

Is it that bad till you don't, no actually never noticed me?

Am I hoping too much from you? Do i deserve this?

I have waited so long, but it seems so worthless.

And even though I don't belong with your high life friend

Doesn't mean we don't get together and try to make amens

It's easier can you see lets agree to just disagree

We don't have to like each other but its sure fun to pretend

Did you forget if I was even alive? :P

2009-09-10T01:05:00.000-07:00

Hey Ya!

It's been 3weeks since I've last blogged, I'm sorry I've neglected you dear blog. (:

Happy Belated Sweet 16!
090909 baby! ilysm (:

So I've been busy with stuffs, internet server has been a TOTAL PAIN.
Will be updating more soon. Hopefully.

Stress, Stress, Stressed!

2009-08-20T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hey, hi, hello!

OMGEEEE! I'M FUCKING STRESSED!
Teachers expectations on me are tooo high.
Dad thinks i'm scoring, i'm more like flunking. =/
ABRSM Theory Exam is in 4 days time.
Haven't memorised a shit.
SO LITTLE TIME, SO MUCH TO DO!

I can't fuck this, I can't go through this again.
I currently need to jump off a building, nehh not happening.

when I was a child I had a fever,
my hands felt just like two balloons,
now I've got that feeling once again,
I can't explain you would not understand,
this is not how I am.

I heart Pixie Lott (:

2009-08-13T00:37:00.000-07:00

Hello,
Finally back blogging (:
Pixie Lott is my current addiction, she's a younger and hotter version of Duffy.
Can't wait to see her perform at MTV World Stage!

Pixie Lott <3

What would my mama do
If she knew ‘bout me and you?
What would my daddy say
If he saw me hurt this way?

Te Amo, Mi Amor (:

2009-07-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

UM Big Band '09

Hello,

Hey, I have to admit. I miss you quite terribly. What has happened to us?

confused,restless,jealous and hurt.

enough said.

p.s: TGB'S wonders why my posts are getting emo lately,honestly,wo puche taww.

p.s.s: Its the 29th tomorrow, lets reminisce the past (:

No more empty conversation

Next time I will be totally sure

Don't want the pain of falling

In and out of love

It's more than my poor heart should endure

So I listen to all the advice

And remember each time I cry

Too nice?

2009-07-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Been feeling so down these days, my loved ones are my only cure lately. Am I being too nice to you? If I am, why do you have to take advantage of me?
Just cause I told you that you mean something to me, it doesn't mean you have to take me for a ride. I've been putting up with you a lot, but how long can I go on this way? I've got feelings too.

I guess I'm the type of person who prefers not telling anyone how I feel, but that doesn't mean I'm okay. I know how I feel, and right now I'm fucking hurt.

Not forgetting, its just my luck, to be the person who has to listen to everyone's story bout their ex and how much they regretted letting them go. Its confusing for me and hard if you want me to be the exactly like her, I'm sorry, I can't.

And to you my friend, if my feelings ever comes it'll come, I don't need you forcing me. If its not meant to happen, I don't mind.

p.s : I thought you knew me. =/
p.s.s : I never understand you.
p.s.s.s: Thanks for listening FarahRAF and CLKY (:

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare,

either way, I don't want to wake up from you. <3

Miss Independent (:

2009-07-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Its been a while since I've updated, currently uploading pictures from litnight and evelyn's partyy (:

Blogger is being a pain in the ass, it'll take some time to upload, so sit back and relax. :P
Monthly exam is in 4 days time, ohh wow.
Homeworks are accumalating, fucken shit.
Regretted not going for SHOUT Award, bloody hell.
Misses someone badly, gahhhh.

I'm so moodless right now, thanks a lot fcuker.

// will be updating soon//

Your face will be the reason why I smile

But will not see what I cannot have forever

I'll always love you, I hope you feel the same.

Lightning Arrow (:

2009-07-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

This picture just tickles me (:

Fazlan and his brother.

Hello,

I'm back blogging, miss me?

Fazlan Adhili, I think I miss you (:

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really
are to me,
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little
punching bag,
And I need you, I'm sorry.

2 shots please! ;)

2009-07-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hello,

So I didn't go to school due to certain reason. =/
Decided to spend my day with Adrienne Rochee (:
Was suppose to take Pepper and Fudge out for a walk, but I didn't know that they're FREAKING BIG. -.-
Adrienne was home alone so decided to teman her, well today we decided to try some tequila.
That bitch ass was freakin drunk. HAHAHAHA. She was so smart to mix it for the dogs. -.-
to give some "umph" she claims, she simply cracks me up. Ily Bitch Ass!

Honey, her new addiction. It turns her on. =P

The Camino Tequila which was so 'kao'

My Bitch Ass <3

I miss spending time with Adrienne, after 3 months, finally we're keeping up with each other. (:

p.s : Our phone calls are no more hours or minutes, they're miserably seconds now. =/

p.s.s : Don't bail our friendship please?

and you live in my memories,

forever more I swear.

OhmyTwinsss!

2009-06-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

SARA QUINN TEGAN QUINN

MY CURRENT OBSESSION!!!

TEGAN QUINN AND SARA QUINN YOUR SO FUCKEN HOTT! :D

I NEVER KNEW THAT TWINS CAN BE THIS GOOD LOOKING

p.s : Erra, I want this hairstyle, okayy not? =P

p.s.s : currently gaga over them *drools*

No more settling for less (:

2009-06-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

Hello Sweet Talker (:

I've missed blogging! seriously.
Its already 24days (: ngeeeeeee

Finally over with band concert, goshh how much I'm gonna miss all my percussionists!
School's okayyy, seriously missed out a lot with the TGB'S. :(
Since I'm sitting right infront, I've gotta stop eating and sleeping in class, Farah keeps laughing at me, but I still love youuu. (:
I really miss our all sitting position. Gahhhh.

I just wanna say that I'm sorry if I've offended certain ppl in my previous post, I was just in a bad mood, and I really didn't mean it. I hope you'd read this, I'm really sorry.

I remember when we kiss,

I can feel it on my lips.

Reminiscing you (:

2009-06-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

Hello,

I, Priyankka. K, admit that I'm a band geek and I can't wait for band concert '09. (:
So, I practically had a great weekend, and I'd say that its true I can't get enough of you.
Things are back to normal between us I guess? I hope so, and I want it to remain this way.
I'm sorry if I've hurt you again, but I have my own decisions to make, and for sure memories between us, I'd cherish (:
I miss studying, goddamnit. =/
I miss you every second precious human :D

Iman, where the hell are you?? We've got updatings to do!!! (:

Two's a company, three's a crowd

2009-06-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Back to school and I'm missing you, I know I'm not like her but you can't expect much from me, I have my way in doing things. Its pretty obvious you miss her, but don't use me as a reason to get over her. Yes you tell me its already 2 years since you two broke up, but why still mention bout her? How am I to know you're over it. she practically moved on, what about you?
Stop telling me to get hold of myself when you can't get hold of yourself. Its not my first time being in this situation. Stop telling me that you love me when all you talk about is her. I'm not being arrogant or whatever, but I have to be selfish at times like this.
I think we're better off being friends, I don't want to commit myself in shiznits like this. I'm scared of losing you as my friend, because I appreciate you. (:

" And thats why, my love, you'll never live without I know you want me girl cause i can see you checking me out, and baby you know, you know you want me too, don't try to deny it cause I'm the only one for you *farts* "

ily, ewyn (:

Another year older (:

2009-06-10T07:23:00.000-07:00

the awesome dad (:

Hello Avid Bloggers (unlike me),

I've finally turned 16! WOHOOOO!

Thankgod everything is back to normal again and I really appreciate that my babies were there for my Sweet16. (:

p.s : NattSin, Fitrah and NurNatt we'll have another gathering with you sayangs (:

So, I'm here to braggg bout 8th June :D

me, farah, dad

*walks out of the room all dressed up wearing a beanie*

pa, lets go!

wow, I didn't know it was snowing

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

whatever laaahh

Then we reached Curve at bout 1.30p.m, met up with Hannan at MNG. Then we waited almost 2 hours for Princess to come. Bloody ass. HAHAHAHA

After all of us met up, we went to Annette's Dad's karaoke place. Best gileeeee! As usual, me and Farah the pro ones. (:

We went for lunch at TGI Friday's. yummy! We watched sick videos from Carmen's friend's phone. Egahhhh, totally lost our appetite. Eventhough Carmen warned us not to watch but it was the curiousity. =P

The look on Hannan and Nette's face was simply priceless. HAHA!

After all that, went to Farah's house bout 9 plus. Me, Farah and Hannan were playing Pop The Question game, its a game where you describe the pop artist and you'd have to guess which popstar is that. Suddenly Redza came to help them out by singing songs sang by the artists.

meRedzaFarahHannan

'we are fronted by Jon...' *describes the band Bon Jovi*

'I don't wanna close my eyes' *starts singing confidently*

Isn't that Aerosmith? *confused*

'OHH YEAHHH! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA' *realises*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Friends are really the best medicine when you're feeling down! I LOVE YOU HUMANS SO MUCH!

p.s : Thanks to everyone who wished me, Farah I loved your trick, and yess you were the first (:

Iman thanks for the birthday song, you're so talented. (:

p.s.s : NattSin we've got lots of catching up to do! I less than 3 youuuu

p.s.s.s : BernieKoh forgot my birthday =/

Has anyone thought of me?

2009-05-28T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hello,

I can't take this anymore, I know I'm not involved but indirectly I am, because if you guys think twice its also gonna be MY day.

How long am I gonna just suck it up and pretend that I'm going to be okay by calling this thing off? I'm not being self centered but what about PRIYY?

Some of you are just busy bothering on what to wear or what time to meet up and all, but are you gonna help to patch things since it has gone worse?

E, I know what you're going trough when suddenly everyone is against you, I personally apologise because I was being self centered earlier today. You told me to still have the party without you, but I won't because WE planned it together, and it once meant a lot to you and it still does. So baby, just know that I'm here for you just as much as you've got my back. I seriously felt super bad when you cried. Its not you, its not your temper problem but its just the fact that you hate that things are falling apart. I love you so much, please stop crying and to top it off I do miss you so badly.

And for godsake! stop comparing yourself and E. She has her own style and everyone has their rights to do whatever they one. So what if your miss retro? You're not the only one, you probably got that from LB. Ring a bell? I can say it back to you that I loathe cats who copies. F you. Leave ERRA alone!

Before I forget, we all have to deal with the fact that everyone bitches about everyone, its a nome. They even have their improvised version. No use pointing out that another person is immature because it reflects back to yourself.

Lastly, lets not bail our friendship on all of this. ITS NOT FUCKING WORTH IT.

p.s : Apologies to whoever who's offended. I didn't mean it.

p.s.s : I'm gonna fcuking Miss Nur Natasya Mohtaruddin, mane you???? :(

p.s.s.s : TGB, I know we're solid as a rock! (:

p.s.s.s.s : Farah, Fitrah, NurNatt and NattSin have fun on your vacation. Ily (:

6 years and 5 years (:

2009-05-27T00:01:00.000-07:00

Hello,

School has been pretty hectic lately, I just can't wait for this drama to end. I'm pretty sure we're all tired of it.

After all I'm going through I've to realise that friends come and go, but F and E they're always there for me, and I hope it remains that way (:

Yes, we go through rough times together but we'd eventually work things out. I'm glad that you two are always on my side at times like this. Thanks Farah and Erra for being there through out the whole time, eventhough its my fault at times.

Carmen, Annette, Natasha, Fitrah and Florence thanks for listening, i just needed to let it out.

I love you all so damn much!

p.s : Tasya, lil P is missing youuuu.

p.s.s : I appreciate your apology, thanks. ily babe. (:

p.s.s.s : Iman, just chilll (:

Take your time to realise (:

2009-05-23T11:33:00.000-07:00

Hello!

It has been daaayysss since I've updated my blog. Pretty caught up with stuffss. Currently miss hanging out with FarahRAF. Can't wait for the outting laterr!!!! weeeeee! (:

NEWAYS, spent my day with hannan and sya today, sya bought us lunch! (: thanks babe.

To this specific person, here's to you (:

Its too bad that you don't like the fact that I'm in the position that you dream of being in, and I'm the person who she turns to all the time. Btw, how long have you known that person to say all that? for goodness sake it was less than a month and you two barely communicate and got to know each other. I don't care if you envy me, because the last thing I know I'm not involve in this. (:

p.s : stop making it seem like you two had something so magical together or whatsoever

p.s.s: this is my 10th post babiessss!!!

I don't want it anymore

2009-05-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

I forgive, but I won't forget quoted by clky.

HELLO,

I can't take it anymore, the feelings I feel inside, how long am I to hide it? I miss you, no actually the memories we shared.
Its like this raging feeling that I can't let go of, it annoys me because it makes it harder for me.
The way you do me is a damn crime, but when you smile I tend to forget about it.
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you. maybe I should slap you but I rather love you.
Truth is I think I like it like this. Gaahhh.

xxx, lil P. (:

Nothing Can Tear Us Apart, Mom (:

2009-05-12T02:41:00.000-07:00

SAYANGSSSSS <3

HELLO BABIES,

I'm finally back to updating my blog again since the important subjects are over! weeeee

Mommy called today, she was feeling very down. She has health problems and it might get serious.
I felt really bad for her, I haven't been spending time with her, we can even go through a week without talking, maybe just saying hi and bye.
I love you so much ma, I just don't know how to show it. We've had lots of missunderstanding and sometimes I'd prefer pa then you. Its just that I spend more time with him then I do with you.

So, I've got new resolutions before anything happens to you I want to spend time with you (:
I miss our bonding session, we should do it more and yess there's a lot of updating to do.

"My mom is a neverending song in my heart
of comfort, happiness, and being.
I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune"
ILYSM MOM

bamm bamm! :D

2009-05-08T09:04:00.000-07:00

Finally, back on track (:

Helloooooo!

So, i've been gone for a while, pretty long time. Besties got annoyed that I didn't update until they got sick of checking my blog.
The week passed by so fast, exams was okayyyyyyyyy, maths was a total mafakka. -.-

Screw maths, I'm looking forward for Mother's Dayy :D

temptation is a mutha (:

2009-04-21T02:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO LOST CHILDS (:
So, I've not been blogging, my bad, but I'm BACK!

I'm in this total tempting mood to do lots of things, but it'll either get me into deep shit or I'll just end up feeling shitty. So I'll rather list them down to make me feel better. (:

tempted to slap Amelia's face for ruining my friendship with Ami. ( her bday's coming up, fcuk! )
tempted to eat chicken, but i'm on this chicken-free shit for a week.
tempted to get an iPhone for my bday ( this will not make me feel shitty at all)
geez, there's just too many temptations.

" I can resist anything, except temptations "

eff you see kay eye tee (:

2009-04-13T22:06:00.000-07:00

Hello,

I'm so FCUKING bored of all this lame ass same sex drama. I don't care who you wanna fcuk around with, its doesn't affect me a single bit. For fcuk sake, you are all FEMALE at the end of the day. So you can go around bitching bout me, guess what? I DON'T CARE. After all, the person that you're fcuking around is so much like my rubbish? haha, go cheapen yourself Puteri, it makes me feel good (:

p.s : I hope you'd read this, because I rather be frank bout who I'm refering to.

p.s.s : I'm trying my best to not bitch about people because it's gonna cheapen my blog.

I heart Archie?

2009-04-12T07:29:00.000-07:00

see! even the uncle hearts david! :D

HELLO CHUCKERS (:

YESS! I went for David Archuleta yesterday. woohhooooo!

damnn fun! enjoyed the concert, it was worth waiting for almost 6 hours, kan erra?

spend the whole day with erra, oh how much i loved it. simply priceless!

we had A LOT of bimbo moments!

lazy to elaborate, tomorrow jerr.

p.s : Iman, why are they acting so CHEAP?

Baby, it's fact (:

2009-04-07T07:53:00.000-07:00

Hello Awak (:

Decided not to go school today, slept in till 1pm. sheeesh. thanks to the phone call with kambing, talked till 3am. It was fun (:
spent the day with B.J, how I miss gossiping with my granny, finally revived (:

Dear ex-bestf,

I've deleted all your messages since 11 years of friendship means nothing to you (:

p.s: to Nette and Dline, Happy One year Anniversary :D

p.s.s: thanks FarahRAF, for the round of applause, ily (:

Katherine Moennig please? :D

2009-04-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

SHANESHANEYYSHANEEEEE!

HELLO,

Hell yeahh i'm still in my shaneyyshaneshaneee mood :D

currently watching L word season 4, again. hahaha

f-ing hot sial!

hello sexy bloggers :D

2009-04-05T05:04:00.001-07:00

HELLO BLOG (:

Hello,

FINALLY, after a long and major consideration, I've decided to start BLOGGING! :D

Thanks to Erra, I AGREED.

xxx,Priyy (: